Those who believe (in the Oneness of Allah, and whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of Allah, Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest.
Surah Ar-Ra’d [The Thunder], Verse 28
today..monday.. 14 disember 2009..27 Zulhijjah 1430 Hijrah
DISEMBER mornin
pg yg indah spt biasa ak bgun,mandi,berkemas,breakfast.. rutin harian.. tibe2..dalm pkul 11 lbey.. sumone's comin.. by riding a bicycle.. and it was grandma..nenek.. and shockin me.. she was cryin..cryin..n cryin.. i'm callin my mom n told her i grabbed my tdung n went to nenek trying to relieve her.. n asked her slowly..y?? i think i know y..mmmm... ok nenek..take ur time..breath.. mom came to us.. nenek already calm again.. slowly..she explained to us.. and... my instinct is rite it is about..datuk.. arwah datuk.. mmmm.................................................................................... T_______________T
flashback.. JULAI..
12 Julai 2009 / 19 Rejab 1430 H
ari itu.. ak berseap2 awl pg krn ade kije yg blom slesai persiapan nk pegi maktab.. awl pg..ak kluar ngan moto ke bandr pegi uruskn ini..itu.. n finally.. it's done..alhmdlillah.. on a way home.. incidently.. ak terserempak ngan datuk n nenek on a motorcycle too.. they're just nearby i went to them.. callin them.. but they don't heard me.. mmm............... nver mind... myb my voice is too slow.. n cannot reach them.. so,i just ignore it.. n went home..
arrived at home.. i'm shocked.. nenek n datuk had already arrived b4 me n they r waitin 4 me.. to say their last farewell b4 i went.. (coz by noon that day..my dad, my dad's fren,my lil bro n me.. gonna go to perlis..to send me..mmmm) i still remember.. during dat time.. datuk was sitting on the chair n readin a newspaper nenek was talkin with mom n me..only enjoying da scene.. then...b4 I’m leavin.. they gave me a loaf of bread.. sweet bread.. datuk said.. “ambik la..bwat bekal kt sane..” roti itu.. “thenkz datuk..” mmmmmmm………………………………. almost 12 noon.. we will be leavin ak bersalam n they wish me luck.. last scene.. i was in a car..n waving them.. sad…yes…it touch me deeply.. coz dat was da last time.. i saw my datuk………………………………….. my loving n funny datuk………………….. ……………………………………………………………………………..
13 Julai 2009 / 20 Rejab 1430 H
We already at perlis Dat mornin.. 5.30 am…. dad asked me to call mum n wake her up to perform Subuh prayer.. i called home.. mum answered.. her voice…it’s differ…sounds serak2..cryin?? yes…mum is cryin… i passed da phone to dad.. dad…he looked shocked…istighfar.. n raup muka several times.. i tried to stay calm…… w’pon…ati kuat said dat sumtin is not rite here… n it was true……. dad said…..dgn terpaksa.. “eida…datuk da meninggal..pkul 3 pg td….” “sesak nafas…mnggal mase sdg tdur….” speechless………………………………………
ari 2 juge.. ak kene dftr msok mktb… feelin mmg tgh srabot.. abah nasihat sruh cekalkn hati.. smua da jadi..xbley undur balik.. tp..ak nk balik… tgok muke datuk bwat kali terakhir… tp ape dayeku….ak tetap dftr spt biase.. like nothing was happen…………. ak msih engat… datuk btol2 hepi mase ak dpt msk mktb his cucu akn jd cekgu………. mmmm………………………………………………………………
DISEMBER continue..
nnek said…she teringat kat datuk.. as she cyclin to my house on da way…she still remember da last time was with datuk.. dat is da day when they come 2 say their last farewell to me… b4 going to perlis when datuk was still alive…. n ari ni… she keeps remembering datuk.. stiap kali bercerita.. msti akn kaitkn ngan datuk.. aku taw..nnek sunyi.. dlu..mase bln pose.. ak slalu teman nnek.. dan waktu awl2 itu… she keeps cryin..cryin.. n me..try to hold my own feelin… ari ni.. ak cube hiburkn nnek… td kami sume pegi jln2.. lunch same2… but I know… she still sad.. coz she still talk bout datuk… me n mom…just listen….n comfort her
aku… ak xreti xpresi emotion kat muke.. when dad told me bout datuk dat day.. i don cry…pegi dftr spt biase n live life like nothing was happen.. but deep in my heart…cryin… everytime watchin mom n nnek cryin.. ak cube tngkn hati sndri.. i need to b strong.. to survive on my own… n not to let them worry bout me…. coz….i’m strong….really??........................... …………………………………………… ………………
AL-FATIHAH buat datuk…. Semoga ditempatkan dalam kalangan org2 yg soleh..insyaALLAH… Amin…….
