aku tak pandai bermadah bicara, aku tak reti menyusun kata. aku bukan sang pujangga, aku insan bergelar wanita. was it too great to be loved by too many women? does it make you feel good to give hope to them? i am fool and the fool is me. it is pathetic enough when the best part that i can do is just keeping silence without even hating you. i guess being fooled around is much better than knowing the truth that finally i will regret and cursed myself after thinking of all the fake scenes that just bumped to happen before. thats feeling that i own is not to be tested nor judged. was it fun enough to playing around with a fool like me? gosh, i'm just like a puppet in a show. and you do play the character very well. people just reject anybody in their life so easily while i have to think maybe up to ten years on what to say, what to talk about so it won't hurt anyone. does justice really exist? show me one. i'm not the kind who will curse people back even being back stab. and for that,you should be thankful though. there are still many things that are not being settled,were leaving behind with unspoken decision. if that last choice was made based on one-sided story or because you can't accept my lack,you should think back. thanks for your beautiful lies and for that, thanks again for teaching me what actually love is.

p/s : not perfect enough, yet i'm trying hard to be one. it is always the first love that people will never forget. 

p/s : tak marah. cuma terkilan. sangat-sangat..