Those who believe (in the Oneness of Allah, and whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of Allah, Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest.
Surah Ar-Ra’d [The Thunder], Verse 28
there is no place like home. you can just doing anything at home. eating anything at anytime. even if you want to cry, you won't be able to shed any tears as it don't want to flow as your glasses eyes seeing your parents. and you will continue to do normal-basic-things like nothing such damn things has happened. it's not trying to be hypocrite by hiding your feelings, it is the human-spirit-collection during holidays. side-self assignments maybe. courage. brave. strong will. sympathy. mature. positive thinking. and sorta bunch of other moral values. etc. as mom told me how hard my dad's job at his workplace 24/7 with non fix recess time and not-so-scheduled holidays given, i was bumped to reflect on my attitude and like being knocked by a hammer on my head that reminded me to be as strong as dad. and as mom opened up the historical story of how hard she's living in this 'neighbourhood' for this whole life, i was like listening with my eyes just focusing towards the wall and my head keep processing the input and my heart linked with my brain to make an agreement on haunting me with the feeling to be as patience as mom. so to reflect back, to what extend that i think i have already facing the challenges in life by right my age is just only 21 years old? and to make me realize deeper, for what reasons that i am always complaining in life ?
"Do the people think that they will be left to say, "We believe" and they will not be tried? But We have certainly tried those before them, and Allah will surely make evident those who are truthful, and He will surely make evident the liars."
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta? (Al-Ankabut : 2-3)
notabuih : too much to think about. i'm trying hard to stay positively every single day with still lots of negative thought lingering in my head. Ya Allah, peganglah hatiku.
notabuihh : you know what? home is the best place when you just originally being yourself without been haunted by other peoples' shadow.
