if i want to call it as unfair, i will. but it's not my way to shout it out loud to express my dissatisfaction. how come practices and the real ones were not conducted for all group at the same time? for how long everything need to be dragged on till everyone are ready? and which court says that the decision for doing it this way is being approved by all means? i object it though. i know it is only people with an authority who can make a decision. so by that authority, i thought it will be in a fair way. where does the logical lies on? even slightly says, there is no fairness at all. i am not blabbering here just to say how dissatisfied i am on the 'thing'. it's more on how disappointed i am. maybe it was not anyone's fault. maybe it's just the undetected situation that was ignored. maybe i should not complaining more. maybe i just need to follow the flow. it is just that sometimes when something happened i tend to think and reflect everything. at one point i am wondering why there are people who so firm to their hold even if they loose it a little, it won't kill their talent i guess. and i am doubting too, why sometimes honesty and effort are not being appreciated at all nowadays? for certain people i mean. ?

# and why do i have to mess up my head with all these? urgh.