sometimes you feel distracted, frustrated and disappointed with the people around you since you treat them nicely yet they respond unexpectedly and by right where actually if you just gonna follow your young-hot-blooded feeling you just wanna spill out and let the anger out. but then your sanity comes and you think twice wisely and you just let the anger trapped inside you and pretend like nothing hell has happened cause you still consider the people around you on how they might feel and what they may respond to your actions if you just act without thinking. even when you have to comfort and entertain yourself instead of making the situation becomes worse. then you start to find resolution to cure your heart illnesses by doing vandalism to yourself or manipulate the situation just to release the dissatisfaction. after one moment when you realize that there is no point of feeling mad since it takes nobody attention and it bothers no one, then you start to laugh and being normal again while reflecting back to your own dumb self-conflicts just now. sigh.

# keeping silence to show objection and rebellion. urgh.