trapped in a situation where there's no way out, the effects may catch you to a never-ending episodes of reminiscence. back then, years ago, them years of immaturity, irrationality and bad influence of affection, i had somewhat crafted my own sweet sin of puppy imagination. and to be truth, that fool times had really turned me to someone that me, myself not even recognize. pondering alone in reality with normal mind today, i take a deep breath and regret so much for the chaos that i had created. bumped to you in a sudden unplanned meeting, makes my veins rush to flow the blood again. not that i don't like, far enough to hate, just the situation won't be the same as before. i don't want to repeat the sins, i don't want be the slave to my own uncontrollable nafs again. and that improvement needs determination. that's what i've learnt. i pray everyday, for Him to rescue me, and protect me from those bad whispers. i want to build my heart again, this time with a strong faith to be hold on. InsyaAllah. may past will never be buried, as it actually bring so much lessons to  be learnt. welcome Ramadhan, let's upgrade our iman together.

 THE NAFS