today is a total mess. starting from the moment i woke up up till now, everything were just not in a right way. yaya, like i don't care but i do. back to this morning incident, i felt so ashamed. this is not about the parade, the commands or whatsoever, this is merely just related to human's manners. manners that once i thought what will shape an individual. though you have pretty faces, highest grades or expensive limousine, by time that you spit in a crowd, the fame goes nothing. with a shriek voice and a loud laughter, the embarrassment grew bigger. yes, i made fault. but i bet nobody have any right to humiliate that wronged person publicly. maybe it seems funny, but i tell you it was NOT. not at all. in front of battalions of people, it was like somebody was throwing rubbish to my face. sarcastically says, it was so mean. and i felt so distracted. i'm about to burst, but the sanity still hold my patience. not that i'm saying i will just raise a white flag like i'm a coward here. still for the respect, more or less i'm still the loser. for the sake of everything, i'll take the blame on me. 

i wasn't proposing an argument with anybody. but the words that came whispering at my ears proven that not all besties are besties. i saw that annoying smile. sorry to say. maybe she wasn't mean to create that smile purposely on my case, but that is totally scratched me. the giggles were petty lame. and to say someone is '******' during that critical moment is unnecessarily actually. even you are unintended to say it orally as it was mistakenly spoken out by your innocent mouth, noted that it was already said. people heard, and i'm hurt. so thank you friend, you made my day gloomy. sincerely, me.

# best friends. they know how crazy you are, and still choose to be seen with you in public.