yeah. tomorrow is exam and i'm being too hyped to update my blog today. so cool meh? like there're nothing else to do. pfft. i slept late last night but i woke up early this morning. so i'm lazing around right now, too lazy to start reading EDU, watching the sunrise, calling my mom to greet good morning, had a cool-breezing bath and suddenly decided to write. few days ago, i got a book from my friends. they bought, wrapped and posted the book for me. i'm very glad to have them. those who always didn't count for anything on a ticket of FRIEND.

so about the book. it is called 'anthem' by hlovate. yes, she is my favourite writer ever. i'm collecting all her books right now and i don't want to miss any of them. her writing is simple, easily digest and trust me it can create awareness to those who care. i've learnt a lot from her writing, from her way of thinking, from her perspectives, from her interests and i really like them. as i read anthem, it brought me back to those all seems-too-good-old-days of mine. i used to be like the old-dash(the main character) long time ago. where world is seems to all fun and the only one that matter. when dress code was not a big deal as long i've my jeans and my shirt. and when everything still doesn't make sense. it was just fun all the way. those black-old-days.

as i'm growing up, i met variety of people. a talker, a liar, an advisor, a joker, a motivator and several more. it's just that i'm waiting for 'a lover' to come for a moment. ihiks. along the way throughout the dark tunnel, i found a light. a light that leads me to today. to realize that there're still a lot to learn. to analyze that the old-me is not a right choice. to understand that every person that God send into our life brings something actually. to learn to giving up on hope sometimes. to learn to appreciate. to learn to accept. and to learn to change. faking a smile is not a crime. unless it drives someone to have a crush on you. aha.

basically i've no idea on what i'm writing now. it's just a mere sudden-self-reflection to the old-crisis-identity. 

anthem is till beating harmonically in my head. and it creates a melody that i called as 'memory'. 

'everybody has a past. everybody lives a present. and everybody deserves a future'

-'anthem',hlovate